In the photo above, I show my little home office, with the cozy sofa that converted into a bed for guests. Across the room, I had a little office nook for my computer. I had shelves with lots of books. Then everything went downhill.
Two years ago, on May 6, 2019, my life changed dramatically. I fell or lost my way, ending up on the floor for hours…and then a friend discovered my predicament and called 911.
After spending four days in the hospital, I had a diagnosis and treatment plan that would involve surgery. It sounded simple enough, but it would be several months before the surgery could be done…and in the meantime, my kids persuaded me to move into an Assisted Living Facility. I say “persuaded,” but most of the time I felt like I had no real choice.
For the past two years, I have felt a combination of resentment and gratitude. Yes, it has helped to be in an apartment with housekeeping services, laundry, and food preparation. But, those are mixed blessings, too. Loss of control, etc. And with the lockdown of 2020 that went on for more than a year, I lost even more of my independence, thanks to the rules of this very controlling establishment. For most of 2019, I was able to come and go, using Lyft and going out with friends. That all changed in March 2020.
Now restrictions have loosened and I am fully vaccinated. But I cannot gain back what I lost.
My small studio apartment is my solace, as I have slowly added some old favorites, along with some new ones. My bookshelves are growing (most of my books did not come with me here). And favorite photos are on my walls. Even some dolls have joined me.
My laptop computer is my best companion, as I write my blogs, review books, and watch shows and movies on the streaming services.
So perhaps some might ask what I’m complaining about…since there has been good with the not-so-good. But loss of independence is not something I can take lightly. Yes, I did have quite a bit of freedom before the Pandemic. But that year changed everything. The staff here make most of the choices for us…and it is hard not to wish things were different.
My attitude could use some more adjusting right now. But considering how things have unfolded between two years ago and now, I might have to accept that some losses cannot be regained.
Until another day…any thoughts from other bloggers?